Magical Pain

Wasn't I supposed to forget you?
After all you did to me.
You left me alive, still breathing
While I was dead inside

When will I stop scratching
The surface of old pains
I scream and scream so loud inside
It hurts my heart and brain

Your thoughts have far exceeded
The reality of your self
You are an angel in my mind
In real you're just some girl

Nights have become so painful
Barely do I sleep
Every breath reminds me of you
And your spotless smile

Miles away you are from me
But your thoughts are always near
May almighty keep you happy
And hope you'd always smile.

Tell me how

Is air around you made of magic?
Or made by God Rhollor.
Thousand of things in my mind
But your thoughts still stand taller.

Troubles elude my mind
When I see your smiling face
Like a snow melting
Under the summer haze

How can I define what is beauty
You give it a new meaning everyday
You rock my mind with your micey tricks
You always know the way

Comparisons

How can I properly express how I feel
When I have never felt this good before
How can I compare you to anything
When nothing compares to you.

Within thoughts within thoughts within thoughts
You are deep inside my every thought
I Don't know where one emerges and other ends
For this is strange and new.

Your Smile

You stole thunder of a thunder
When a smile flashed upon your lips
Blessed are those who chanced upon
To witness such a amazement

You stole my nights
With your unlimited thoughts
A flowery smile that you smiled
Brought the joy of thousand smiles to me.

Words fail to express
How your smile changes my world
It's a spark of a light
In my darkness filled night.

I'm amazed how easy it has become
To write a poem about you
One mood of yours
Brings thousand words in mind.

HER

Thousand times I have stared
Into your smiling eyes
That gapes at my lonely soul
And sees beyond my fake smiles

Where am I, I often wonder
When walking alone in rain and thunder
This is not where I want to be
Without the warmth of arms of thee

Dragon queen I often called you
Sun is pale in front of you
Fire you burned still burns brightly
Flaming my dreams at sleepless nights.

Crawling back into old habits
Familiar I am with old scars
Too dumb I am to even bother
What kills me like a black poison

Have I told you lately..

Have I told you lately
How wonderful I used to feel
When I was around you
And my soul began to heal

Have I told you lately
I miss warmth of your arms
It meant a world to me
Spares me of all the harms

Have I told you lately
How every breath reminds me of you
Like a thirst reminding of water
In the desert of gloom.

Have I told you lately
How less do I sleep
Your memories haunting me
Like hundred swords unsheathed

Have I told you lately
What wine does to me
A gallon of it inside me
Still your memory isn't weak

Have I told you lately
How I cannot help but weep
When the memory of that night rushes back
When you said, "You're sweet."

Words feels like a weak medium
To tell you how I feel
I bow my head and let out a tear
For all the word to see.

Mother

I still remember that time
When I opened my eyes for first time
"You're beautiful" she said with tears
"I'll never let you cry"

I tumbled through my first steps
You held my hands so right
"Just one more step, sweet little boy "
She said with consoling smile

You spoiled me with the rich gifts
And showered me with selfless love
My welfare was your only thought
This memory will ever preserve.

You pushed me and pushed me
When I was too tired to rise
In this cruel world I was failing again
Until you held my back.

Thank you is too small a word
I know I can never repay
For giving me this gift of life
And keeping me away from harms.