Magical Pain

Wasn't I supposed to forget you?
After all you did to me.
You left me alive, still breathing
While I was dead inside

When will I stop scratching
The surface of old pains
I scream and scream so loud inside
It hurts my heart and brain

Your thoughts have far exceeded
The reality of your self
You are an angel in my mind
In real you're just some girl

Nights have become so painful
Barely do I sleep
Every breath reminds me of you
And your spotless smile

Miles away you are from me
But your thoughts are always near
May almighty keep you happy
And hope you'd always smile.

Tell me how

Is air around you made of magic?
Or made by God Rhollor.
Thousand of things in my mind
But your thoughts still stand taller.

Troubles elude my mind
When I see your smiling face
Like a snow melting
Under the summer haze

How can I define what is beauty
You give it a new meaning everyday
You rock my mind with your micey tricks
You always know the way

Comparisons

How can I properly express how I feel
When I have never felt this good before
How can I compare you to anything
When nothing compares to you.

Within thoughts within thoughts within thoughts
You are deep inside my every thought
I Don't know where one emerges and other ends
For this is strange and new.

Your Smile

You stole thunder of a thunder
When a smile flashed upon your lips
Blessed are those who chanced upon
To witness such a amazement

You stole my nights
With your unlimited thoughts
A flowery smile that you smiled
Brought the joy of thousand smiles to me.

Words fail to express
How your smile changes my world
It's a spark of a light
In my darkness filled night.

I'm amazed how easy it has become
To write a poem about you
One mood of yours
Brings thousand words in mind.

HER

Thousand times I have stared
Into your smiling eyes
That gapes at my lonely soul
And sees beyond my fake smiles

Where am I, I often wonder
When walking alone in rain and thunder
This is not where I want to be
Without the warmth of arms of thee

Dragon queen I often called you
Sun is pale in front of you
Fire you burned still burns brightly
Flaming my dreams at sleepless nights.

Crawling back into old habits
Familiar I am with old scars
Too dumb I am to even bother
What kills me like a black poison

Have I told you lately..

Have I told you lately
How wonderful I used to feel
When I was around you
And my soul began to heal

Have I told you lately
I miss warmth of your arms
It meant a world to me
Spares me of all the harms

Have I told you lately
How every breath reminds me of you
Like a thirst reminding of water
In the desert of gloom.

Have I told you lately
How less do I sleep
Your memories haunting me
Like hundred swords unsheathed

Have I told you lately
What wine does to me
A gallon of it inside me
Still your memory isn't weak

Have I told you lately
How I cannot help but weep
When the memory of that night rushes back
When you said, "You're sweet."

Words feels like a weak medium
To tell you how I feel
I bow my head and let out a tear
For all the word to see.

Mother

I still remember that time
When I opened my eyes for first time
"You're beautiful" she said with tears
"I'll never let you cry"

I tumbled through my first steps
You held my hands so right
"Just one more step, sweet little boy "
She said with consoling smile

You spoiled me with the rich gifts
And showered me with selfless love
My welfare was your only thought
This memory will ever preserve.

You pushed me and pushed me
When I was too tired to rise
In this cruel world I was failing again
Until you held my back.

Thank you is too small a word
I know I can never repay
For giving me this gift of life
And keeping me away from harms.

Miss You

Even After all these Years
And all these seasons
The memory of your smile
Is a warm embrace.

Nought there's a night
Neither a day
That I don't remember you
And become your prey.

I pray and pray
For the day
When I shall see you again
And this song to play

But the time has come
For this thought to slay
To hug this pillow
And to sleep I sway.

Close

Close you were
Once upon a time
When sky felt blue
As Blue as now I am.

There were so many birds
And sheeps in herds
That brought a hope
Of peace for a nerd

The beers I drank
And vodkas too
To forget your memories
But that won't do.

Love is a drug
And so are you
Fuck off from my mind
Why won't you?

Happy Birthday

To my first thought in the morning
And last one before I sleep
Happy birthday to you
You're so sweet.

The reasons of my vodka
And the reasons of my smile
When I talk with you
The time seems to fly.

Twinkle in the eyes
And the temper of the Dragon
A true khaleesi
From every one of the angles.

Best person I know
And best of my friend
You bring me joys
That can't be explained by pen.

Happiness be yours
For years and years
So fucking happy for you
God bless you with none of the fears..

Sad Sun

Burning away his life hopelessly
With smoke in one hand
And wine in another.
The gulp of the wine spreads it's arms around his throat so smooth
He feels the pain fading away as he begins to remember her warmth.
But again he remembers the smile that made him fall for her and gulps the wine to calm the pain once again.
The days seem to fade and nights become a escape from her memories.

Your eyes are calling me out

Your eyes are calling me out
Like a cool air in summers night.
I look for you and nothing but you
You tease me always with that cunning smile.

Why do you smile at me like you know something about me..
A secret I've been holding that only your eyes can read.
I hate to be a trouble to you
You're my angel and always will be

To my best friend

To the friend
Who was always there for me
This poem is for her
Who coded with me in Asm, Java and C.

You were always there for me
Through the highs and low
How much you mean to me
I can never show.

There is 'end' in  friend
Because they are the ones
Who stay with you
Till the end

It still seems like yesterday
When all I did was to hate you
Now I hate you for different reason
For giving me so much to remember and going away.

How did time go so fast
And how we become best of friends
Whatever may happen tomorrow
I'll always remember 13s and 19s with you ;)

Ocean

That secret you never told
That sadness you never showed
That smile you never hide
That trick you never played on me

Now and then your thoughts drift
Through my minds not so swift
It drills my soul with things I miss
I smile and move on as you wished.

Damn you're perfect

Never would I have thought I'd know someone so perfect
Like a angel of a dark night
Showing the path
So clear
So perfect
It makes me feel, are you for real?

Was it the smile?
Or was it the small things you do?
That made me the biggest of your fans.
I forgot why I even went down this path,
The spark that consumed my soul.

It's an amazing feeling that I just can't explain
Is it for true or just an illusion?
You soothe my soul with warmth
So gently
So deeply
So sweetly
All I want is to see you happy
And that's all I ask you for.

Your smile is my drug
The ones where the eyes twinkle
It's so clean
So genuine
So damn beautiful
God, that's some beautiful gift of yours for eyes of mine.

I'm sure this is some kinda heaven,
Where else one can find an angel like you.
How else can I explain this thing?
When everything  about you seems new.

Unfair

It is unfair
That you're so beautiful and smart
It is a cause of pain to so many hearts
And loss of charm of so many girls

What can I do,
When you set the standards so high
I can't even look at others
Without comparing to you

These are all some vestigial feelings
Hurting me deep inside
My days are gloomy with thoughts of you
Nights are sleepless without you.

Not just a human

Maybe you're some magic
Or some angel from the place so far away
I'm sure you're not just a human
For humans cannot be this perfect.

When I see you laugh
It makes my soul jump up
Like a child seeing the candy
Or like a drug addict seeing weed

I have dreams
That's incomplete without you
God plays such a odd game
I wonder what's his plans.

Gift

The breath you took away
That is a gift.
The eyes that twinkled at me
That is a gift.

The footsteps you left in my heart
That is a gift
The way you broke my heart
That is a gift.

The way you made me suffer
That is a gift
The nights I spent thinking of you
That is a gift

The way you look at things
That is a gift
The things you love to hate
That is a gift.

Blazing Eyes

Blazing beauty of your eyes
Making my days so beautiful
Thoughts within thoughts within thoughts
I dont know where one starts and another ends

You are a single proof of how stupid I can be
Witness of my madness for you
I have made total ass of myself
Just to make you smile once.

Its so cute when you have a thing to say
About something you cannot say aloud
Your eyes twinkle like a bright star
In the clear night of summer

I have a dream that one day
I will see that twinkle again
The one that made me lose sleep
And kept my brain from working

I can't tell you why..

Up all night
Staring at nothing
Thinking of you
All the things you do

Smallest slice of our time together
Is an never ending eternity for me
Moments spent with you
Are memories already

You stun me everyday
With sheer simplicity
My madness has no limits
Oh its not quite fun

Venom Feelings

Though it was a poison
Sweet was your love
Like nectar flavored poison
You soothed my soul.

It was killing me slowly
From deep deep inside
Only you can distract me
From this pain and lost soul

Heart needs love
Like a mind needs puzzle
The mysterious feelings
Are the ones that are true.

I never understood you
No matter how hard I tried
You surprise me everyday
With your greatness and brilliance.

Sometimes I wonder

Sometimes I wonder
How did you get so much power
To make me laugh and amazed
And think about you for hours.

You are just bones and a beating heart
With eyes that twinkle like a shining star
How did you manage to fuck me up so bad
Sometimes, I wonder.

Why does it make me happy to see you
And want to be with you forever
Is there a end to this madness
Sometimes, I wonder.

I give you my heart and soul
Without even a second thought
Will you ever love me like I do
Sometimes, I just wonder.

Killing me Softly

The fire you lit inside me
Burns my soul so slow
It tortures deep inside me
And makes it bright and glow

Till the last breath I hold
Its you or nothing, I know
I may grow old and grumpy
But these memories will be gold

You light my days with fire
That burns inside me as I see you
The days are high and low
But you are my one and own

This feeling I've been fighting
To make me feel again right
For you're too deep inside my head
These lines can't hold a light

This feeling of a void
Without  your smile or words
Wouldn't even fill this one
With thousand lying nerds

To My Best Friend

I was sitting here thinking
of the words I want to say,
but they just wouldn't come out right
so I found a different way

I got a piece of paper
and I wrote this poem for you,
but there's no way to thank you
for everything you do

For always being nice to me
and staying by my side,
for helping fix my problems
and never leaving me behind

For accepting my thoughts and feelings,
though you do not understand,
for never giving up on me
and being my best friend

For making me laugh
and letting me cry
and saying you'd miss me
if I were to die

Everything you mean to me
you could never know
In all the ways you've changed my life
I could never show

The way you take care of me,
you're my shining star
and though it's so incredible
that's just the way you are

Before I get too mushy
it's time for me to go,
but before I leave this ink-filled page
there's one thing you should know

As long as we are living,
no matter when or where,
if you ever need me
just call and I'll be there

I'll climb a thousand mountains
and swim a thousand seas
anything to be there
'cause you've been there for me

Rain Smash

As I drove through the storms and thunderbolts
The rain beatdown my face.
At that moment of speed, pain and loneliness
The clouds of my mind moved away.

I could see  the light.
So bright. So clear.
The path was so twisted and long.
But I could see through it.

The burn of feel is so real
I cringed for it every moment.
I can't imagine living without seeing you happy
Oh I can't be more clear.

The smile on your face And a twinkle in your eye
Is all I want to see
The days are long and nights are longer
Without you it'll be harder.

First Rain

Walking lonely through a highway
Heart full of thoughts
Suddenly a gust of wind blows so smooth
That brings me out of dark

Lightning lighting the city at night
Rivaling a sunny day
I look upon the sky with wonder
Forgetting my way

Aroma of the first drops of rain
As it paints the earth
All the pains of day just forgotten
Oh it was so worth.

The tears of the clouds began to pour
As I try to hide my own
I miss that hand in my hand
The soul was getting sour

Back to bed alone I went
With her thoughts still intact
The empty bed smiled at me
Man just accept the fact.

Morning came with new rays
That brought a fresh light
This too shall pass I told myself
Looking at the sun with delight .

Dark Passenger

In this scary world of unsurity
I was a lonely wanderer
You killed my loneliness
Like a ray of sun kills decades of darkness

You stood by me through my darkness
Held my hands when I was in doubt
Without you my life will be so lonely
Like a lonely moon in dark sky.

Words cannot describe my love for you
No matter how much they try
They say life goes on with time
But this times will make me cry.

All I want to do now
Is kiss you and hold in my arms
Under this moonlit night
While the stars twinkle in your eyes